I'm listening to "let's kill ourselves" by cfcf, touching ice, and techg1rls. soon, madonna's "what it feels like for a girl" is playing from the queue.
fox dropped his new single "wow!" a couple of days ago. I got the preview when I came over for our series shoot. he's really just firing away, love to see it.
our first meeting was during the filming for i'll show you magic's "feel you" video (which I'm still working on my own director's cut so keep an eye out if it ever gets done and if it ever releases). we had a little mini crew going. most were just onscreen talent but everyone there was a godsend in helping me bullshit the curtain set up—I swear we almost broke the studio's c-stands but what do you expect from someone who never learned set etiquette? I'm out here learning by doing... it's been rough ngl.
that video shoot was in january, a week before my birthday. already feels like forever. what's happened since then?
I went on tour, loved and hated it. I directed more music videos and promo work. more photoshoots—some that my friends got very upset about (I went on an apology spree). and reflected on how I view my work and the effort I put into it. I could go on and on about the last part but some things really are just for yourself... until I'm in a mood and go off about it.
we love fox.
deadass.
bring his name up, if we know him, we only got good things to say. not just the music (shit hits though) but just the vibe. the humility. the support. someone who finds the positive in everything. it's almost frustrating how you can't talk shit with him—he always has nice things to say about people.
I love to gossip, too—I got the girls and gays for that I suppose...
you ever have moments when you only exist inside of yourself? and then you recall a face, and you know them? and you have seen them? spent time with them? worked with them? existed in parallel?
I was in new york. I was in kentucky. I was in georgia. I was in illinois. I was in texas. I was in pennsylvania. I was everywhere.
I know fox. I know eva. I know taylor. I know katrina. I know luna. I know mia. I know quynn. I know remy. I know syd. I know soleil. I know kyla. I know julianne. I know avery. I know hundreds. I exist with billions.
how lucky am I?
this day happened.
5/21/26
and to think I almost bailed because the pool felt too nice on that sunny day.
